Been a loooooong time

Here's to change...change can be good right?! Sometimes I even think change can be wonderful...mostly I think it sneaks up and bites a girl in the ass...but hey, I'm jaded. I've been told I see things as "half empty" and to that I reply...well, life has thrown enough poo in my face to keep me from getting my hopes up over things I can't control. I have a small space in my head for hope...it resides there till something happens to prove that the space needs to be enlarged...until I've got something solid to go on I let it simmer and marinate and, well, hope that I have something to be hopeful about. That way if it turns out that the glass really is half full...of PEE! Then I haven't given myself over to loads of emotional drama...yay! And I remain "mostly" intact...I know this is horrible and I should "have more faith" or "take risks" etc...but I do my thing and you do yours and for me, for now, it works just fine.
In other news...I like blogging...I had forgotten how nice it is to just BLURG ( not to be confused with BLURT)it all out and not care who may or may not be reading...who may or may not be offended...this is MY blog and I can say what I please...no one has to read it...it doesn't pop up in your page unless you click on it...yay!
In other, other news...I may have been partially responsible for the death of a pigeon today. I don't even really like pigeons...but they come to my house and eat the bird seed I leave out...so I just pretend they are my urban chickens and try to think happier nature thoughts without grumbling about the fact that Tucson blows and has WAY less wild life than Oregon. Anyway, I wish them no ill so I was a little more than sad to find that a Hawk has figured out that pigeons are always in my yard and chose to EAT ONE IN FRONT OF MY PLACE TODAY! Thankfully I forgot about this as the day progressed...that is until I took my kids out front to ride trikes...and the Hawk swooped down and DROPPED THE BLOODY CARCASS ON MY DRIVEWAY! You could have made a comedic horro skit out of it...literally I am INCHES away from this thing and out of the clear blue sky a dead, headless carcass falls infront of my face and onto the pavement. It took me a moment to figure out what it was as all the feathers were gone...head...guts...most of the wings...it looked pretty gastly...it's now in my trash can...I can hear the WIld America theme song in my head right now...I can see the bearded host...wow, the 80's show up when you least expect them.
Gah! There are so many things I want to type about right now...but I think I need to give it more time...a lot of...Poo...will be rolling soon and I need to collect my thoughts before I dive into all of that. Sooooo, nighty night all...Goonies forever!